custody court

Tomorrow is the big day. Custody Court. Although I already have full custoday, Nick wanted to be a jerk and try n take that away from me.  He has no grounds for I am a great mother, not a drug addict and have not done anything criminally wrong in order to lose my custody, still, it's stressful and I cannot wait for it to be over so that I can get on with my life. 
This does not change that I still love him completely and haven't been able to get over him or on with my life.  Yes, I have many suitors and have gone on plenty of dates, but he continues to claim he loves me and in that I believe it holds me back from devoting myself to someone deserving and new.  My friends have all told me I am way above his low life and deserving of someone way better.  I know they are correct, I just wish my heart knew it too.  Last night I cried myself to sleep, woke up crying, then went back to sleep only to wake this morning in tears again.  I am stronger than this person who has taken over myself.  I will take it one day at a time.  I will move onto better things.