court was continued

May 20th is the new date for custody court.  Nick laughed at me as he exited the court room, knowing he now has time to clean out his system for the drug test we will both be required to take.  Since he thinks this is such a funny game, I have gotten angry beyond words with his dragging this court shit out as long as possible.  It could have been over on April 8th, but he is trying to wear me out.  He is only making me angry and resentful.  With anger comes retaliation.  I would like to be friends with him, I know now that is not possible.  I would like to give him more time with his son, our son, but he has just made that take longer along with his court case.  Doesn't he know well enough that I will not compromise when it comes to our son? I have also finally become angry enough to not answer his calls, to shut him out of my life.  This makes me very sad to do, but the only way I can cope.  Coping is very hard and I find myself crying a lot, but this shall pass.