the thought of a boyfriend makes me cringe. Is it bad that I enjoy life as a single 30 something with a child and a dog? I feel like a boy on the inside sometimes, and it really is not that I don't care about the boys who love me and cling to me, but I don't feel anything for them and the more interested they are in me, the less I want to be around them. So then I have to deal with these boys, acting like women, pathetic cry babies b/c I didn't answer their calls or texts. The guilt trip bs that girls pull, we never spend enough time together, you don't care about me b/c you don't let me crawl inside your asscrack, love me, love me, and don't forget to tell me when and where you are going, why, what you will do there, and who will be there.
I dread ever again having to ask permission to spend the day with a girlfriend or to go to a club with friends. I never again want to explain myself b/c you read my texts or assumed wrong over a facebook post and answer where I was because I was late or answer to anybody for anything, like a twelve year old. It's really fun going to the bar and getting drunk boys to buy my drinks, or doing whatever I want without hassle or consequenses or judgement. You know, a good friend would treat me with fun loving kindness and respect with no drama and no questions asked. No strings attached keeps me interested and keeps them motivated to impress me and if they can't handle my boundaries I simply move on to another or find myself happy sleeping alone.
Relationships are give and take. I give you what you want and you take your ass home before you start to fall in love and turn into 36 degrees of crazy.
My favorite is the ex lovers who come back around beggin for attention and when they get rejected have a nervous breakdown that usually includes the words, 'i can't live this life without you.'
I believe there is no such thing as can't and loathe excuse makers.
Whats my point?
um, is it wrong that i am perfectly happy living alone and get offended when people don't know how lucky they are to be allowed near me and given the chance to know my family and friends. It's essential that I be treated like a pretty big deal in order to keep me interested, but is that arrogant of me? My parents worry their beautiful daughter will never get married, but Im proud to say marriage is not important to me. Sounds like a lot of work and statistically fails more than lasts, so why bother with all that if I'm ok owning a dog instead.
and seriously, I'm not too concerned if I hurt your feelings, stop acting so girly, it's annoying and embarassing.
Last thought......get a decent job with benefits and your own transportation, move out of your moms house into your own place and grow up or I will ALWAYS hurt your feelings, loser, gawd!
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