It's been a long time.

I forgot about this outlet of mine. The one where I lay everything out for myself to read. And it's been seven years. So much happens in so many years. I got pregnant by Aaron Duncan. Shane's older brother. Ten years after Shane died. So to me, I got Shane back in a mini version of myself. Aaron stopped speaking to me or having anything to do with his child.
I got an associate 's degree in Surgical Technology. Best decision I ever made. I have a career that I love.
Life changed drastically when my dad had a stroke on Oct 8, 2016. My life became about him. Nick n I married and divorced. In April, Nick was killed in a car accident. On impact. We were estranged at the time, but it still brings me To my knees. He was great to both kids and life is tragic without him. The challenge of raising 2 boys on my own has never been more real.  Every day is new and a blessing. I have to keep telling myself that. My only choice is to keep moving forward. I am all these kids have.

I don't understand Aaron tho. What a coward to dismiss your oldest child.  I decided that he has had long enough to be in links life. If I do ever hear from him again I will be cold. His son doesn't need that kind of interference at 5 years old or ever again. I wonder how Aaron sleeps at night.sometimes. Most of the time I don't think about him. I have mastered the art of emotional disconnect.

I met and dated a sex offender who  is in jail now. Not very proud of that one.

Presently I am cheesing on a hottie named Shawn. He's amazing, but I am insecure. Maybe he will understand my magic. The cards are discouraging, but I'm gonna try anyways. .